lost cause

i opened my mouth to the polluted rain

i kissed this boy on the cheek

i waved goodbye to the pain

offered it to him. take it.

(with quivering hands and obedient eyes he takes it.)


i heared you scream.

beautiful. again.

beautiful. again.

i laugh. ecstacy in its purest form. i swam in it. i drowned in this- distorted feeling.

Control. i had you by the neck. you succumbed. one praise after another.


tables suddenly turn.
your voice was suddenly different. the arrogant fool was gone.

i heard mine. it was different too.

then i did not understand who i was.


only that i needed to catch breath. - i needed your breath.
i was no longer amused, i was getting lost.




maybe it was i who was a slave to you.


the power you have to make me want to hear your heart race. your voice crack. and hear gasps escape those lips that i never tasted.


yes i am the slave. but never did i feel so liberated.

-Kcis

living doll

i was playing with you

i didn't know- you were a fragile thing.

you broke

i broke


you are not a doll now

because you are broken

i have cracked your glass eyes

unveiled a soul, hiding.

a feeling.

your hands, my hands. - sometimes i cannot tell the difference

you make everyone in my life. a blur.

everyone i have been with - a wrong mistake

i wish i made you my mistake. you are my right mistake.

when i saw your lips quiver

when i heard your voice break

it melted all the coldness

of the jail bars that i put up

you ask me and i cannot answer.

a tear falls from your hazel brown eyes.

you shower me with YOUR kisses.

-they are distinct. - yes.

i can feel your breath.

i hate myself.

i know not who i have become.

i know not who i want become.

and i suddenly hear socretes whisper in my ear:

"you know nothing"

-kcis