our forgotten faces

i m writing because i might forget but i honestly don't understand how i could but if i do at least i d have this:

you do not know that i feel something but i will describe this night as vividly as i could just because i can't help but get it out of my system. it lingers, you see the feeling of this perfect reverie. when we talk and smile in my perfect world

heavens were coated suddenly with a red blanket

and those stars that we used to praise were gone.

the breeze was perfect. just as you were.

my friend my enemy my love.

the grass was soft but at the same time coarse

do you remember you asked me if my heart was working? i believe that it was.

another 17 year old write. happy- it disgusts me.

i have written and played with my words so many times when i m with you
perhaps it's because i cannot understand myself.
spoke in poems,lived in scrambled words, just to try to let you feel what i felt,
just to have you hear the birds and angels sing.
and now i don't want to let you interpret once more of my children's book.
just want to tell you, i love you plain and simple, i do.
wherever you go , i hope you'd hear these whispers.
remember the times when i did with my voice.
- i love you :)

YAKK! oh ha?! san ka pa!! :D wahahahahaha eh wala lang :p see? i m not sad!! :p i m a happy person hahaha and kadiri kasi mushy! :p pagbigyan niyo na. minsan lang toh :p hmm bakit kaya children's book.. labo :p haha aksi parang bata ako magsulat? haha lavo mehn wala lang ahaha :p tulad nga sinabi ni oreo - do not be cynical about love. oreo ano ulit ung poem na un? i liked it too i think it's a great poem to live by :p hmm anywho :o) i-yey :p see? i m happy! :p

old write - april 2005

We were lying down on that obstacle course net, my leg in one of those holes that it had through time and endless harassments of the children that-like us-loved it. We talk and talk. Then a sudden surge of peace in me shot up, but somehow, unknown to you.

I see this beautiful animal with wings of an angel and shaped as a dove, soaring just at the right height where it can boast of its magnificence. I can sense your eyes, staring at me as I watched the brilliance of that winged creature spread its wings artfully. You hold my hand, yours was warm, as it was as I last recall. You mouth those three words that you always said, that I always 99.9 % believed, though the breeze, seemed to give me that .1% I needed, it never left.

faith...

the ignorant stupid prostitute

i begged for you to take me away.

-when i shut my eyes and wrapped my legs around you.
make me believe that you love me. you did.

for a while. when you were in me.

when your rough hands were having me. your mouth enjoying me.
when you were moaning against me. letting your lips slide against me slowly.
when you started to make me shiver and gasp.
i thought- you were saying something.
BUT YOU WEREN'T - you were just fucking me, having fun with me, fingering me.

hormones got me there.


-Kcis