roller coaster (walang hawak)

1) can't get mushrooms out of your head
2) titanic is a topic in a conversation
3) getting better in spinning webs of lies
4) ditching important things is a necessity
5) darkness is light
6) smiling alone is fun
7) hands are not just hands
8) your lips and your mouth is life
9) morning breath is perfume
10) sweat is sweet
11) weak knees are looked forward to
12) no lines between heaven and kisses
13) crucifixion is worth it
14) hunger is satisfied without eating
15) time is always short
when all the wrong things are right,
you are either - a freaking psychotic maniac martyr who has gone through suicide attemps and have had whiffs and injections of various drugs, marijuana to shabu.
or you're in love...
(or are those two just synonyms?:o)

a tired soul on my lap

as the night wore on
your heavy eyes gave way.
and the cold breeze,
carried your weary heart.

with your scentless hair,
intertwined with my fingers,
i watched you breathe,
watched your heart beat. For her.

you can always come and rest on me. because i have learned to love you, to hate you, to love you, to love you, to hate you, to love you, to hate you.
to love you, to love you, to love you.
you will always be, you. and I, me.
we will always be us.

a star on december 11, 2006

i saw a star amongst red clouds
and all i had to do was look up.
the blood of bitterness
did not consume
all the sparkly sweetness,
afterall.

love hate bliss brokeness
passion, passion, passion.
in one. sweet, sweet one.
one december
one cool christmas night
one soul again takes flight.

i leave behind who i am.
without rings
but with song
i sing in perfect circles

diet

sometimes,you eat too much.
(sometimes i eat too much)

second serving of iscream
second serving of meat

second serving of broken glass
second serving of bleeding hands

we have to cut down
and leave some for
each other

slept at 12 woke up at 2

slept again at 2:30, woke up at 7
i was called to a corner and was forced to smile with stories of laughter, lies and loves
(i kept feeling a cold gun barrel between my teeth, kept seeing my brain blow off x.x )
-rar-girl talk is not really my thing especially at 7 in the morning-
talked to a dear HS friend of mine... and read her BLOG - .wow.blown away.that's love.-
there is just something about engaging in illegal things that makes me feel that there is greater love present. I mean hell, you'd have to love someone so passionately and actually quite insanely to risk getting into trouble with just being with your bliss.
Loving who you feel was made for you to love, (mushy and triple gross but real)
beliving beyond whatever soceity dictates.
A her with him.
Perhaps a her with her.
or even a him with him.