Bad Surprises

Was excited for area today but it never came :( So sad - as in sad. I can't help but feel yet again that I am at fault for the actions of my areaheads - but i guess I am, I didn't remind them enough I didn't tell them that they HAD TO HAVE AREA DURING THE LAST AREA DAY and remind mang Digs at that. Fucking annoyed at myself, I didn't and a few other ACIListas weren't even given the chance to say their last goodbyes to their kids. This is just painful. :( Gah. Woke up late pa bobo talaga. Annoying. Grr.

But nevertheless this day was full of other things i didn't quite expect. I tripped today over a twig and yeah my toe injured. Went to the infirmary to have it . Old lady with white hair and a pearl hairband went to assist me. She wasn't gentle at all. She wildy cleaned my toe and she said she had to do it to make sure that there were no more bacteria and i wouldn't get tetano. The wound was bleeding more. I covered my mouth to prevent myself from screaming. She asked the question that would turn my world around: "May tetano shot ka na ba?" Me: "po?" she repeated the question: "May tetano shot ka na ba? Kasi mahirap na meron akong patient dati ...." She then told the story about a woman who spent half a million in a month trying to figure out what was wrong with her - apparently it was tentano. She then told me - like doctors do - that it was my choice but if it were them blahblahblah. So to cut the long story short - I screamed for Chieney to hold my hand as the doctor pierced me with her evil needle. :.( It was painful. Nevertheless, eventful.

Whattaday. I want my last area day. I WANT IT. But i m afraid I'll just never get it.