Just Another Day?

So, I m treating this as a journal just so that i don't forget certain things that happened in my life. Since selective amnesia runs in my family.

I have orals later for Philo. Lagliva. Probably nice enough not to fail me in my senior year. So, i'll just write here. lalala.

It's my last day today. Last of the last. The beginning of the end, so to speak, and I have no plans for later.

I just wish this day isn't like all those days. When we just hang out - chill. I m tired of hanging out. I wanna go out, go wild or maybe you're not just that kind of person.

I just saw my ex's facebook - by Accident! I promise! Then something shot through me again - panic, pain and perhaps annoyance why the hell is he still popping up randomly in my life? Maybe i m not over him yet. Maybe i need to find myself? Maybe I still love him? Maybe I want to get back together with him? He's probably different now - but i can't forget the fact that there was once a point in his life that he was inevitably mine and i his - that there's a part of him that's with me and i in him. Maybe i am not over him yet. dunow. frack. hahaha. I m just not sure if i should still be with you if i have these doubts about myself and my feelings with m.

putangina niya talaga noh? ayaw parin akong tantanan.

I hate loving too much - it really does kill you and steals your ability to love again. As cliche as it sound, it does. FRACK YOU M. FRACK YOU!

I really need the 8 day retreat.

I wish this day isn't just another day. Let's see later.

random.