Endorphins after 2 years

1st day of tennis lessons today! (reminds me of my previous blog about that girl yeah with the eye that i hit, i m sorry :(

i don't play good - net, net, net, oh and net. But it was fun nonetheless. Recreational said sir. But I missed hearing that ball. *pock* hahaha i don't know how that sound looks like in words. basta the tennis racket hitting the ball just right, in the middle with the perfect swing - *pock* It is love indeed. After two years of no exercise, this day was a great day to get 'em muscles alive. :) *powck* (is that closer? I don't know. Basta you get what i mean)

Watched "I Miss You Like Crazy", being an avid john lloyd - bea and cathy molina fan, i think i have the right to say things about the movie. It was different. I liked it. It was just painful to realize that it's just a movie, that millions of people out there have stopped loving their real loves and continued on living a lie. I mean how many can attest to have lovers as nice as Emir? Or how many people can take that into their conscience? That's all fantasy, really. But i guess sometimes life is a fantasy?

Whatever. I m sleepy. And I don't understand what I m saying.

IloveyouDy - yesterday, today and tomorrow. (it's like a prayer) I wonder I do that - end my day with thoughts of him. Why, why, why? Interesting to think about. Is it a reflection of my fear to forget him? Maybe it's because he's my happy thought - that he makes my soul fly? Maybe because he is my peaceful memory and if i don't wake up, i'd know i died peacefully because my last thoughts were of him?

I really think I m too obsessed with you, Dy. And it's scary sometimes. :( I think I have issues. I wonder when I'll be brave enough to face them. Hm.

So many things to ponder on when you don't have to read a global strategy book and prepare for an exam the following day.

I want to fall in Your arms.

BTW, new layout, happier layout? I WANT to be happy, just so that all of you know - I want to. But, sometimes it's not that easy to do - but i m just saying - i m trying hence the layout! *tadaaa*