Book Countdown #1

Since I wanted to know more & read more, i decided to TRY and read at LEAST 12 books for this year! yey! :)

So 1 down

January 19, 2012: Game of Thrones by George RR Martin

Primarily read this because of the TV Series currently in HBO! Woot. People are so demn hot sexy and lovable and well, waiting for the next series i got impatient so I opted to read the book! It was a great book, real gripping and heartbreaking at times. though nothing surprised me much as to what was going to happen next - since the series really stuck to the essence of the book down to the lines! But still i kept on praying that some of the characters didn't die :( Huhuhu

Favorite Characters:

Deny Targaryen - was first lost but grew up to find her way - became strong fierce and brave. idol! i know the author has big plans for her!

Khal Drogo - the savage with a heart. <3 spoiler but i kept hoping he'd suddenly come back to life :( and still am.

Arya - i want to have a daughter like her - honest, cute, very loving sister and daughter. full of conviction for such a tiny person.

Jon Snow - i love the disturb child. dark, depressed, lost & mysterious. screaming out for love and a place in the world. well jon snow, you're not alone.

Of Course, Ned. <3 noble loving father! (daddy issues...)

Anywhoodle, learnings wasn't simple.

1. Politics is a bitch "In the game of thrones, you win or you die"

2. The world will keep on testing you

3. whatever you do to try to suppress the screams that your heart is trying to let you hear - you will yield to it. In time.

Both Scared & Excited for Winter! x.x

"Winter is Coming"...

New Year, New Life.

Hi Maggie!

It's a new year and you have been through a great deal of stress and love. but it's time to grow up and learn from everything.

New Year's Resolutions, I m ready to take you on:

1. Read at least 12 Books for the year.

2. Print favorite photos every end of the month.

3. Exercise twice a week. (RUN love RUN)

4. Walk Baby twice a week.

5. Read News Every Week.

6. 350.

7. last but definitely not the least - pray for strength and love. (I miss you Jess)

All Alone.

Update is: Bodi has left me to pursue his career goals, to live independently. I m here, alone and waiting for the longest time. I smoked, am smoking, will be smoking. Overeating, oversulking, overstaring.

I m so depressed.

But I have to get up. I have to breathe. I have to love. My life is now and it won't wait for me to get back on my feet again. Passion. Where are you?

Cagayan de Oro

I m so scared that I'd spend a year or more just waiting for you.

Just waiting.

Happy Birthday Jess

Dear Jess,

I know I haven't been the child you wanted these past few months. It's just it's the first time I didn't feel obligated to follow You, I mean, it's just different now where I don't have organizations dictating what it means to be your daughter (FCCY, ACIL). And I have fallen a long way. I haven't been talking to you - at all.

I have become arrogant, reckless and careless. But for some reason, I have begun to love myself by being a little bit arrogant, reckless and careless. Should I stop being guilty for giving myself credit? For giving myself a little love? For spoiling myself a little bit?

Perhaps not, but this doesn't justify the not talking to you now does it?

I didn't go to mass - I didn't bother to. I didn't even bother to greet you a happy birthday.

I hope you can find it in your heart of hearts to forgive me. I will do better with this new found "freedom" of choice, new found freedom to hold on to my principles or to throw them away like a receipt for a P20.00 bottle of water, new found freedom to say yes to you and your will.

As bodi would say, I need to put on shades/ open my lights.

Let me thank you, Lord for what you were able to let me do this year, and for the things that you gave with your kindness:

1.) Graduation

2.) A for ACIL

3.) ACIL's great leaders for it's 105th year.

4.) Family Love - Bohol, Cebu, CDO <3

5.) Thank you for the pain and the joy of Summit Ridge Tagaytay.

- for the people who I have met and will never forget

- for helping me forget some of those people I did meet

- for the forgiveness & understanding of Clients & superiors

- for the learnings

- for getting me the hell out of there!!! <3

- for Kukay

- for giving me and Bodi time that I cannot trade for anything else

- for reminding me that I need more out of what I do everyday, that it's not about the money. It's about the love & the passion.

6.) For the opportunity to get out of the rut and an opportunity to grow & to love like you have loved me.

3rd, 4th & 5th Christmas Celebration

4th Christmas Celebration: BDD Christmas Party

Toyz Fort Strip! There were a lot of inside jokes that I didn't get but it was loads of fun anyway! And since this blog isn't supposed to be for people who know "me", I m okay with putting my favorite picture of the night!

5th Christmas Celebration: Franchise Christmas Party

Center Stage @ Tomas Morato. Wild. Disco lights via Ms. Aimee's cellphone. Ma'am Net shaking everything. heartfelt singing. Ms. Vianca Dedicating songs to herself. Tanduay Ice as greatest alcohol drink on earth!

6th Christmas Celebration: ACIL Christmas Party

Drunk with genuine love, inside jokes & yummy food.

happy birthday ducky! hahaha

3rd Christmas Celebration

Caroling, family, fun in a bus!

Became an adult supervisor for ACIL. Such a great thing to know that we left our beloved home to such great people:

Message to "undergrads":

I m so very proud of you dears. Congratulations for a very successful year filled with so much accomplishments! Marla and I knew with confidence that you'll go through this year earning bruises that will make you invincible and such great leaders ready for ANYTHING! ♥ And in behalf of my batch, I thank you for taking care and nurturing our baby projects (YCC & Kampanya para Kay Kristo/KKK) and of course our beloved home, ACIL.

Overflowing with joy and thanks to Jess that He entrusted His baby to you guys.

ACIL is not a fraternity, it's a community. ;)

a feast

He looks at me with fever and hunger in his eyes

He breathes heavily.

My soul shivers

I walk towards him drawn, drowning.

He takes my arm grips it hard,

stopping my blood & worries from coursing through my veins.

My heart was thumping.

He throws me down.

Touch Salt sweat eyes lips ears nose.

curves, breath. fingertips. hands. *gasp*

He leaves and i find myself waiting for another taste of his hunger.