Crazy Crying

I started working in Robinson's Land on June 25, 2010 for Summit Ridge Tagaytay Hotel.

It's a new life. A different life.

Every week, I have to go at least once to Tagaytay, commute (bus and jeep) and go back to manila and also do sales calls (which I don't ever want to do and haven't done yet...). My first event had a revenue of P800,000++. It was a big event, people fainted and driver's suddenly didn't want to drive my client. By the end of July, I had a revenue of : P3,000,000.00 ++ and exceeded my quota. I had the highest revenue in the sales team.

But I wasn't happy, Ms. Mel said, if after one month, I m still not happy, perhaps I'd better quit.

It is now August 14, 2010.

I m not happy and I want and need something more. I need to quit.

I talked to my bestfriend a while ago and realized that I have a million of issues that I sweep under the rug, set aside, lock in a closet. I m a coward.

I cried crazy today, a few moments ago... I feel so empty, broken and lonely.

What's missing?

P.S. My eyes say it all - I think I need crazy pills.